I've discovered that singing worship is a key part of my relationship
with Jesus. It's been hard for me lately because my personal library is a
little short in worship music and I used to use spotify for all my
worship music but spotify doesn't work here in Guatemala. My wife Ashley
recently transferred her music to my iTunes which has been a blessing
more than she knows. My wife's music is a little bit more holy than mine
and now I'm thankful that together I have a better selection to chose
from when I just want to love Jesus in a moment. It's moments like this
that I realize why my biblical hero is David. He expressed his love for
God in many songs and many other artistic ways. Sometimes I just need to
sing my love for Jesus, it's the most emotional and authentic way I
know how to approach my savior and Lord. My heart just cries out and I
feel his overwhelming presence with me. It brings me to tears and brings
me to my knees. No moment is more real to me than when I am with my God
in song. In those moments I know my wretchedness, my need for my God, I
somehow understand the power of the gospel in these moments. I grow
sick of any desire of this world and I just become overwhelmed by the
love that indwells me. When I worship, truly worship, in song I hear The
Lord so clearly. I hear answers, commands, convictions. I hear all this
and when it's all over I walk confidently with The Lord.
Back home in Ohio I was surrounded with friends that helped lead me to
these places of worship so often and I never realized how important that
was for me until now. Here in Guatemala worshiping in song has been
difficult for me. Not really knowing the words I'm singing really makes
that difficult. But once in I while I understand a song and get a taste
of that wonderful thing that is worship singing again. I get excited and
I fill with joy. I have some music now in my iTunes that helps me get
to that place of worship and I need to sing with them more often. I need
to take the much needed advice of a friend and "just do what makes me
love Jesus more." All parts of my life benefit from it, so I just need
to be more disciplined and do it. Now that all this has been revealed to
me I need to grow and change my life accordingly. So let the music
play.
